Frustrated, aggravated, and disappointed

Not a fun title is it?  But that's how I feel right now.  I should be feeling happy and joyful since I've got my Daylight Saving Time back and I can now frolic in some sunshine after school and actually stay warm at a baseball game for a little while longer.  Maybe my body is still just a little upset over losing an hour of much needed sleep.  At any rate, I am just feeling....blah.

Ever have those days?  I feel I could burst into tears at any moment.  I'm just overwhelmed with things, my mind is racing with projects and ideas that I don't have time to produce, and I'm stressed out.  I tend to sit and think too much and that leads to trouble.  Actually, it's not good for my health.  I have so much to be thankful for, and I am thankful, but it's just been one of those days where it's hard to get out of the funk, even when you count all your blessings.

I desperately want to write and be a writer.  I feel it deep in my soul and in my bones.  I want to illustrate and create cute note cards and inspirational art that will lift people's spirits when they feel down (like the way I feel right now).  Earlier tonight, as I sat at my daughter's acting class, I doodled and created some note cards for a friend, and I realize now that I was not as "blah" feeling as I am at the moment. 

So, I'm disappointed because I don't have time (or I say I don't) to focus on my mutiny project.  I'm frustrated with the educational system right now and the fact that I am not getting a raise plus I get to lose $81 a month because my insurance is going up.  I'm aggravated that some people in authoritative/educational positions don't seem to communicate to others what they want or expect from children and parents.

But, it's almost bedtime and I have to find something positive so that maybe I can turn off the wheels that keep rotating in my brain, churning out one idea after another.  I wake up exhausted because I lie in bed for hours thinking, praying, creating in my mind.  I do feel a little better having typed this little blog.  Even if no one reads it.  I feel better for myself.  My mind is a little less cluttered, my chest a little lighter, my shoulders less knotted.   I have had this one setback but tomorrow I'm going to rock!  I've got lots of positive things going on and God has a way of making things happen in His time.  I know there are brighter days ahead.   Game on!