Hello, again, blogging world.
I knew it had been a while since I last blogged but I didn't realize it was so long ago. I've missed it. It helps me relax in my hectic, mom-teacher-wife-housekeeper-cook-biggest fan-keeper of all things world. So, here's what's been going on lately and my excuse for not posting...
In my mom world, I've been driving kids here, there, and everywhere. It has helped a lot that my oldest now has his coveted driver's license but that adds a whole new worry for me. Little one has finished up her winter acting class and can now focus on the summer production of The Wizard of Oz. She is also playing softball. My middle son was moved up to the junior varsity baseball team with his older brother, so that helps since we can now be at the same field at the same time. However, the older one also plays with varsity on off days so it seems we live part-time at a baseball field.
In my teacher world, we just had spring break but I had so much to do that it wasn't enough. I want more time off! Prom was the week we returned and it was tough. I had band auxiliary tryouts that week, in addition to all the mom stuff (remember the above paragraph?) and the fact that students did not want to do anything because they had just come back from the break and...it was Prom week. So I earned my paycheck every day last week! I am behind on grading but I refuse to bring papers home to grade. I already feel like I neglect my own children to take care of all the 155 I teach at school so I no longer bring school work home. Although I do usually end up finding things on Pinterest that I will use at school so my teacher brain never stops working.
In my wife world, I have been stressing about finances and how I would handle my husband changing jobs. I don't know why I let that stuff stress my out but it does. The tax refund was a pleasant comfort that has helped a little. He is much happier but he's driving me a little crazy! I am just used to doing things my way, on my own, and now he's around more to help with laundry, cooking, cleaning, but he doesn't do it my way. So, I have to learn all over again to let it go and just be appreciative that I have someone to help me. But it's hard.
In my housekeeper-cook world, well, I honestly haven't done much of this lately because we haven't been home. We've been eating out or at a ball field. We get home so late that I'm not about to clean anything. I throw the boys' uniforms in the wash so they will be clean for the next day's game. It is starting to slow down and the hubby is home more to help with that. I did manage to clean the kitchen and do laundry and dishes today because we were dismissed early from school due to threat of severe weather. Never got the severe weather and I was able to clean and take a little break!
I spend so much time being my kids' biggest fan that I rarely have time for my own interests and pursuits, but I do love it. I enjoy watching them grow and gain experience and social skills. I am going to have to learn to be my own biggest fan and get my books and stories published. I get so frustrated with the education system and I just have to believe in myself enough that people will buy my books.
I get so tired of being the keeper of all things and the "knower" of where all the things are (Mom, where's my...?). I have begun my "clear the clutter campaign" again to not only simplify life but eliminate the need for knowing where everything is. If there's less junk, maybe the kids can find their own cleats, textbooks, paper, pencils, belts, socks, whatever. And maybe I can find some peace and quiet every once in a while.
Not the most profound post but I feel like I've neglected this and I guess I just needed to get some frustrations out so I can focus on some art projects for my upcoming craft shows. Gotta raise some funds to publish my next children's book!
Be blessed!
